...SURRENDER

And I woke up with a frozen tear on the left corner of my right eye.Tear..How did it even reach there ?I don't cry[Self-proclaimed cold-hearted betch]-I said to myself when a tear protested so much so hard to well up in the left eye either... Damn !! Was I cryin ?I thot I was bein rehabbed all night long..!

Its 8:30 AM,I remember I slept last night 'round 3:oo AM or something, How cud I wake up ?If I have woken up,It can't be me[Told ya,I thot I was bein rehabbed all nite long].. Everybody in the so called heavenly abode is asleep but ME !! I cud sense all this 7 months back that it was the prelude of a game that started and the name was - DECEPTION.Despite knowing everything,Teaching other people how to live a " truth ",I decided to live a short-term lie.7 months-Short term ?? Where each day passed like a lifetime in the world of beauty & fantasy,Where a truth camouflaged a lie & a lie wore a cloak of THE TRUTH,the doctrine ?A fake confidence which was nothing but a sibling of " Desire ".So I finally I gave in to it.It happened as it should have happened,7 months have been nothing but 7 lies in the eyes of my delusive love..Those eyes which tear me off,From head to toe if I ever happen to catch a glimpse.Every day a new definition of lie I wud learn.When it didn't hurt back then,Why are these tears playing with my eyes today?Those messages I saw when I woke up,Have transformed me..Don't know if its for any good or bad ?What I feel at the moment is a feeling so content yet incomplete..A question answered yet left with a set of interrogations..A fulfilled dream of 7 months yet a broken dream..An urge to speak but a determination to give everything from these 7 months a silent ovation.. Lie is sweet unless it disrobes itself.Truth is hard to face thus do I think we fear it,Detest it and avoid it so much.I'd seen mates sulking and whining their woes out.But I don't feel like doin that et al.

I feel much stronger in the head,More positive than ever before.If a lie could give me momentary illusive happy world,A truth could give me atleast few moments of real happy world. I so have experienced the illusion,Now its time to face the truth and to face the world.I can see the arms of the strange world open for me and it summons me with a promise to offer more lessons than my fake-love cud ever do.Lo! Here I surrender myself to the arms of the unknown world from the arms of a DREAM..!

Now,its all about me,Myself and the world ! Where there is no love,I can live without much pain.
Give not,take not..!

--- I wonder if Aphrodite when cheated really thinks like that... :-)