I TOLD YOU DARLING, MY LOVE IS WILD.

My love, so impure, so wild, so bad
My gobbet's cadaver and blood-blood on the floor
cap-a-pie I stand scandalous and frozen
And there my love knock-knock someone is at the door...
You knew my love, I was never senileNow here is the result-the clandestine death juvenile

Memories pull me back to the tring-tring sound
And my shattered heart; The wound so profound
I was getting dressed, All excited to see you
Thought of giving you a beautiful surprise
Reached that rendezvous terrace
I had worked on it like an espionage
AM flabbergasted my life, To see you naked
and a figure silhouetted, Trapping you in her cage
AM standing all numb, Trying to fool my heart
As it can get cajoled, But not the widely-open eyes

I took three steps back in a fraction of a second
and here I am back in my room
The air so cruel, Its torturing me love
That lump in my throat, That unbearable pain
Tring-tring!! rings my phone; And you admit
You've slept with my dreams, And you admit
You've burnt my skin-with your warm breath-working on her
You admit you have cheated on me...!!!
Tears running down your eyes, And blood oozing from mine
Our silence as the second language, Is trying to talk-trying to cry
AM a scapegoat my love
See what you did to me

Now I know the reason behind that evasiveness
That brusque I got, Every time I confessed that I loved you even more
Those cold lips, Which once wildly tasted mine
Those distant fingers, Always ran through my hair
Those culprit eyes, Once made me go mad
Our entwined bodies, Now never come near
I kept scrutinizing your eyes full of fear
You don't even ask me to forgive you and come back
All you want is to abandon me forever
No more my love-your cozen words can fool me
A last meeting before the end-You agree-I agree

You entered the room, scared of my paper cuts
But I had to punish myself for loving you
You gave me a hug, threw the knife away..STAB! STAB! STAB!...

Silence for a minute and there you fall my impure love
With questioning eyes lookin at my swollen face
YES! I killed you, I told you I had to punish myself
See I don't even know if I should cry-
AM still you cheat-in love with you
That poison is stunning me slowly...I wanna die seeing your lovely face
I wanted to live with you- But see we are dying together

My love, So impure, So wild, So bad
My gobbet's cadaver and blood-blood on the floor
Cap-a-pie I stand scandalous and frozen
And there my love knock-knock someone is at the door...

My eyes flickered twice, And closed forever
The silent air now feels so mild
I loved you throughout my life..I still love you
I TOLD YOU DARLING MY LOVE IS WILD.........

...SURRENDER

And I woke up with a frozen tear on the left corner of my right eye.Tear..How did it even reach there ?I don't cry[Self-proclaimed cold-hearted betch]-I said to myself when a tear protested so much so hard to well up in the left eye either... Damn !! Was I cryin ?I thot I was bein rehabbed all night long..!

Its 8:30 AM,I remember I slept last night 'round 3:oo AM or something, How cud I wake up ?If I have woken up,It can't be me[Told ya,I thot I was bein rehabbed all nite long].. Everybody in the so called heavenly abode is asleep but ME !! I cud sense all this 7 months back that it was the prelude of a game that started and the name was - DECEPTION.Despite knowing everything,Teaching other people how to live a " truth ",I decided to live a short-term lie.7 months-Short term ?? Where each day passed like a lifetime in the world of beauty & fantasy,Where a truth camouflaged a lie & a lie wore a cloak of THE TRUTH,the doctrine ?A fake confidence which was nothing but a sibling of " Desire ".So I finally I gave in to it.It happened as it should have happened,7 months have been nothing but 7 lies in the eyes of my delusive love..Those eyes which tear me off,From head to toe if I ever happen to catch a glimpse.Every day a new definition of lie I wud learn.When it didn't hurt back then,Why are these tears playing with my eyes today?Those messages I saw when I woke up,Have transformed me..Don't know if its for any good or bad ?What I feel at the moment is a feeling so content yet incomplete..A question answered yet left with a set of interrogations..A fulfilled dream of 7 months yet a broken dream..An urge to speak but a determination to give everything from these 7 months a silent ovation.. Lie is sweet unless it disrobes itself.Truth is hard to face thus do I think we fear it,Detest it and avoid it so much.I'd seen mates sulking and whining their woes out.But I don't feel like doin that et al.

I feel much stronger in the head,More positive than ever before.If a lie could give me momentary illusive happy world,A truth could give me atleast few moments of real happy world. I so have experienced the illusion,Now its time to face the truth and to face the world.I can see the arms of the strange world open for me and it summons me with a promise to offer more lessons than my fake-love cud ever do.Lo! Here I surrender myself to the arms of the unknown world from the arms of a DREAM..!

Now,its all about me,Myself and the world ! Where there is no love,I can live without much pain.
Give not,take not..!

--- I wonder if Aphrodite when cheated really thinks like that... :-)